Friday, December 28, 2012

The flame flickers no more

Published on July 18th 2012
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As a little girl all I knew was performance. Then one day I became old enough to be self aware. This is when the anxiety and insecurities rushed in. I withdrew from not only performance but from people as well. I allowed myself to close up and not immediately show who I am because of fear of judgement. This unfortunately lasted many years. It hasn't been until my experiences at Bunker Hill Community College where I was able to find confidence in who I am and embrace my personality. This new found confidence and acceptance along with the recent inspiration from Tom Hiddleston's acting has repositioned me back on path towards performing once again.

I have always been in love with the idea of bringing a character to life. Being able to temporarily live a different existence and channel those emotions and experiences from within in order to project them to tell a story and affect an audience has always fulfilled me. I want to make people feel and I want to make people think.

Tom Hiddleston said it best during an interview with BBC Breakfast "As an actor what you'll do is with each character you're revealing different facets of yourself and I think all of us have the capacity to inhabit every extremity of the human condition."  Amen to that.

I have been away from my art for so long that it will take time and practice before I start heading to "real" auditions again. Like with any form of art you must use it or you will slowly start to lose it. I need to rebuild what I have lost and continue to build on top of that.

Thank you Bunker Hill for the quality people you house and for the opportunities and services you offer to students. Thank you to all I have met at Bunker Hill and for inspiring me, supporting me, and changing my life. Thank you to Ryan, my boyfriend, who loves and supports me unconditionally no matter what I want to do with my life. And thank you Tom Hiddleston for catching my eye in the movie Thor which lead me to seek out other films you have been in. Watching how you can portray emotions vocally, physically, and internally have reignited the flame within to do the same thing.

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