I can feel my future in the air

Published on April 9th 2012
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I am seven courses away from graduating with my associates degree at Bunker Hill Community College. This both excites and terrifies me at the same time.

I am a year away from Emerson. And once I become an Emerson student I will be two years away from graduating with my BA and starting work in my career field. That thought scares the shit out of me.

When you are younger all the things you want to do with your life are but mere dreams. You fantasize about the future, what you want to accomplish and who you will become.  I am on the verge of no longer dreaming.

Now, I am not saying my exact dreams are coming true or that I will ever really stop dreaming. Nor am I specifically referring to my fantasies. What I am referring to is the fact that my future doesn't seem so far away anymore.  I am close to starting my career and by George that makes me feel so old...and dare I say "grown up"?

I also worry that my expectations won't be met. What if Emerson doesn't do for me what I always thought it would? What if my hard work isn't enough and I am never met with opportunities? What if everything I have dreamed my life would be, isn't at all how it ends up?

I guess those are the things you have to deal with as you get older. I may not know what is in store for my future, but I can promise to never stop working toward making my dreams come true.  Let's just hope I am not met with disappointment.

I know life doesn't always go according to plan, but I hope that whatever it is I am meant to do, it will bring me happiness.