They say Satan is "The Lord of the Flies"

Published on June 2nd 2011
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Did I just dream about Satan?

For many years I have suffered from sleep paralysis and hypnagogic hallucinations.
With sleep paralysis I will awake mentally but not physically.  I will lay in bed struggling to move.  This is usually paired with the feeling of being possessed. I can only open my eyes for several seconds at a time as I feel something evil trying to enter me. I try to scream for help and move my body but it feels as though it is completely taken over. It is quite a freaky experience.

The hypnagogic hallucinations can occur during the sleep paralysis but they do not happen every time.  During the moments of paralysis where I can open my eyes is when I will see things in my room moving around.  Normally though it is when I awake fully physically but not mentally and I will see a large horror movie type spider crawl from somewhere in my room toward me.  Other times I will wake up to other creepy figures.

For the longest time I really thought something was trying to possess me.  It wasn't until I started typing my experience into google where I discovered a new possibility.  Everything I was going through and feeling is exactly what people feel during sleep paralysis.  They even mention how they believe sleep paralysis may be a big reason people think they are abducted or haunted/possessed and that is why there are tales of said abductions/possessions from a time before neuroscience.
With this new knowledge I decided I was going to try and control my sleep paralysis. Each time I woke up into the paralysis I was now aware of what was going on.  I knew it was sleep paralysis and with that knowledge the feeling of being possessed went away.  I would still struggle to move and I would still hear things and people that weren't there- but this time I wasn't scared. With time I started to realize that if I woke up and knew the paralysis was taking place then I could also just let go, stop trying to wake up, and let myself fall back asleep.  This would actually allow me to fully awake.
I am not "cured" from sleep paralysis but since becoming aware of its presence it is always a different experience now.

Which leads me to the creepy dream/experience I just had this morning.

I fell asleep in the living room on my boyfriend's futon.  I started dreaming about the room filling with rather large flies.  As this was happening I started to wake up into sleep paralysis.  As I lay there struggling to keep my eye lids open I heard a loud male grumbling voice tell me to "come to the flies!". He repeated this three times and with each time the voice got louder and closer to me.

As with every other time, I allowed myself to let go and fall back asleep.  In this dream I was walking up a small flight of stairs toward an entry way.  My body felt absolutely weird.  It was almost as if I could fly.  I felt so light and high.  I was also not fully in control of my actions.  I was being drawn up the stairs.  As I got to the top of the stairs I turned left into an empty apartment.  Standing across the room was a shadow figure of a man.  He stood in front of two large windows with the sun shining in on him.  Even the sun wasn't bright enough to remove the darkness that hid his identity.  My happy floating feeling turned immediately to fear.  I kept drifting closer to the figure.  I wasn't sure if I should panic...and a part of me was too curious to fight to get away.  As I approached the man it was like he spoke through me. We both wanted to know the same thing.  I remember hearing the words in my head as I woke up whispering them.... "who - are - you?"